why do I love so damn hard?

I sit here at this very moment listening to Brandi Carlisle after making the same foolish mistake I have made time and time again. I opened my heart to a stranger, so desperate to find that special someone. I had waited so long to even allow a man in my life. I am aware of all my foolish attempts to trust someone, only to be burned time and time again. I've gotten counseling, trauma therapy to be exact for 3 years now! Still I ignore red lights and settle, knowing damn well I deserve so much more. I disappoint myself, I truly do. I do fine without a man, more than fine. And here I am learning the same lesson once again. You'll be okay Denise. Thank God for Brandi Carlisle.